Please please please PLEASE be alright.
i'll commit suicide if anything happens to you.

I'll be praying
w(-.-)w

die die die
I NEED MORE TIME.

I let go the chance last night
To tell you of the truth
It didn't seem important right then
But now it does; this is how it goes:

Once upon a time I found a friend
And a friend indeed he became
Smile. Laughter. Character.
I was deeply captured.

Once my heart skipped a beat
I thought I was caught
That once again I'm struck
By the little angel's arrow.

I kept the feeling hidden
"Impossible" was the only word
To him I would never tell
The fear that he would leave.

Things just didn't seem to go my way
And on that fateful morning
I fell.
Hard.
I could only cry.

But he did not leave.

He only sought to make me feel better
and how wonderful it was
Slowly but surely
The sun came back up again.

The feelings started to grow no doubt
Somehow though, it's a whole new world
Not the typical love I felt
Mine was for a friend instead.

It hit me like a thunder bolt would
And relieve was all I felt
For a moment I paused. pondered.
And organised my thoughts.

The truth then unveiled.

I can't thank my friend enough
He has done uncountables
Though it was a bare few months
He took me on a special ride.

It came by chance that I found him
He of similar thoughts
Someone there during the tough
Someone there for the joy.

The friends I had all come and go
I walk foward with them
And turned back to find them gone
I want it different this time.

And this I wanted to say to you
Is how the story goes
It may not mean as much to you
But for me you can't imagine.

Remind me friend,
To tell you about "someone new" ;)

and the cut becomes deeper..
or did it?

______________________
<3
<3
<3
JOHNNY DEPP.
pirates of the caribbean.
13th July
I CAN'T WAIT.
ivan and wenjie..
you 2 promised to watch with me liao hor!!
dun ps me.
i'll kill you.

[from trailer]
Elizabeth Swann: There will come a moment when you have the chance to do the right thing.
Jack Sparrow: I love those moments. I like to wave at them as they pass by.

[from trailer]
Jack Sparrow: [to Elizabeth] You know, these clothes do not flatter you at all. It should be a dress or nothing at all. I happen to have an old dress in my cabin

_____________________

econs test was horrendous.
my hand aches now.
and i hardly studied.
i figured that study or dun study
also fail.
so
DUN STUDY!!!
:)

oh ya. my blog can't be viewed in firefox.
thanks to tanyaw for letting me noe.
see la. now have to change skin again.
SIAN JI PUA.

OMG I JUST TOOK MATHS TEST.
and it was
it was
it was...
HELLLL.

actually it's okay la.
just that i made a few careless mistakes.
and missed out a part.
OKAY LA HOR?
not that bad right.
okay fine it's bad.
bleh

i had a very terrible morning.
i didn get a single wink last night.
terrible horrible headache.
terrible.
horrible.
vegetable.
whatever.
and so, i didn really sleep
and when it was time to wake up, i felt like sleeping.
wth rite.
and after breakfast on the way to school,
i got ANOTHER headache.
ah it just sucks.
luckily before the exam the headache was gone
but now.......
IT'S BACK.

have to mug mug mug for econs.
econs!!
i'm quite weak in that.
dunno how i'm gonna study
sian ji pua

i asked alec to help me download song:


Alec GTC said:
duwan
got limit one k
always ask me download i not happy liao
nougat - seal has flu. *sniff* said:
okay lor
Alec GTC said:
say sorry
nougat - seal has flu. *sniff* said:
sorry alec :(
Alec GTC said:
okay later i help you download

HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

5 snacks i enjoy:
1. potato sticks
2. CHOCOLATE.
3. doritos
4. chachos
5. nougats!!!

5 songs i know all the words to:
1. many JJ Lin songs
2. certain FIR songs
3. Heaven Knows
4. many westlife songs
5. many N*Sync songs

5 things i would do with 100 million dollars:
1. give half to my parents
2. MOVIES
3. Buy all the latest gadget and fashion items
4. Go on HOLIDAY.
5. donate remaining to charity (sigh)

5 places i would run away to:
1. RJC. see all the hot ruggers.
2. Korea, where the actors are HOT.
3. Japan, see pretty chiobu and cute boyboys and my TOKYO DISNEYLAND
4. Paris, wonderful place
5. just some countryside

5 things i would never wear:
1) men's underwear
2) fat-revealing clothes
3) knickers?
4) big grandma undies
5)okay la wig.

5 bad habits:
1. i like to lazy around
2. easily distracted
3. have to time management
4. like to find people just to irritate them
5. couch potato!

5 biggest joys:
1. Father And Mother I Love You
2. my parrot.
3. lovely hamsters
4. my friends
5. if i can eat all i want without ever getting fat

5 fictional characters i would date:
1. SANZO
2. GOJYO
3. Gambit
4. GTO
5. Reno

5 people i shall tag to do this:
1. ALEC
2. jeannette!!
3. yuetfeng! if you read this ;P
4. karen!!
5. fabian?

alec is dumb.
and i mean it.
this is what happens in a convo with him:

























and really.
he's dumb:

like wth??

just watched the showtime show..
i really like the JJ one...
hahahaha.
saw xiaoting and MARK!
MARKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
hahaa.

had an embarassing incident today.
i was at the bus interchange..
then there was this guy beside me..
when the bus came everyone started to move..
so i moved also and was taking out my wallet.
i didn noe the man infront of me stopped walking..
so i went BAM. into him.
SO PAISEH AR.
wth.
time for tv again.
C.I.D.
my qi yi wu
*swoons*

watched SILENT HILL today.
with karen.
my first ever "horror" show at the cinema.
and it was..
SICK.
there was this scene where this demon tore off this woman's clothes; grabbed her tits and wrenched the whole body apart.
IMAGINE.
bloody hell sick.
got a bit of scary parts i guess.
i'm totally freaked by the siren sound.
but overall, i liked it :)

i had fun disturbing my bro today.
i picked up this bottle thing he had.. which had a broken handle.
so my mum decided to malign me and told him
"eh your sis spoil your bottle."
bro: "no is i spoil de!"
i decided to be guai lan.
me: " NO K. I SPOILT IT."
bro: " NOOOOOOOOOOOO I SPOIL WAN."
me: " NO IT'S ME."
bro: " okay fine. then you buy new one for me la!"
okay.
i got owned.

anyways.
I HAVE A NEW PET PARROT.
damn cute.
and and and.
trained one.
so can take out and play.
wee!

complicated.
life is definitely complicated.
oh well.
but there are fun times too.
it's only that most of the time the down moments seem to feel more obvious than the better moments in life.
and this is when friends come into place.
it's wonderful when you have people who give you their honest opinions.
when you have people who believes it's their job to make you smile.
and even people who are just there to listen.
it's just wonderful that people care.
and i thank all these people.
without them i guess i'll just die.
:)

anyways.
MY FREAKING MOUSE IS SPOILED.
cannot use left click.
barnacles.
so i changed everything to right click.
and and and.
no sound also.
BOO.
BIG BOO.

btw i think KANGTA formerly from H.O.T. is just simply...
HOT.
hahaha.
no other terms.
very very hot.
( v)KANGTA(v)

something i "composed" with the help of a chinese song..
anyone can gues which song? lol.

I'm no longer running,
having went though terribly
these stark empty days.

Maybe love does not seem that tranquil
it takes time and practice
for perfection the way you want.

You will never imagine-
it's beyond your thoughts
how much I've been hoping for.

I'll let my life be stained with colours
whatever the colour may be-
red orange yellow blue or purple

Circling me round and again
I can finally say the words with ease
and the spark bursts into flames.

highlight the things you can do:

I know how to make a pot of coffee.

I do my own laundry

I can cook for myself.

I do my chores after being told once

I actually enjoy intellectual conversations

I think politics are exciting

My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers

I show up for school/work every day

I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse

I've never gotten a ticket

I watch talk shows and point out the incredibility of it all

I know what incredibility means without looking it up

I drink black coffee

I know how to run the dish washer or do the dishes

I can count in more than one language

When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.

I mow the lawn

I wash my car

I can make adults laugh..without being stupid

I study when I have to

I pay attention at school/work

I remember to feed my pets

I'm generally organized

I can spell organized without looking at the line above

The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee

I can go to the store without getting something I don't need

I understand jokes the first time they are said

I understand the fact that the world always screws someone over

I can type fast

My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something like that

I can watch politics and laugh because I understand what is going on

I no longer watch cartoons.

I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour

I can look at someone hot and not think of sex.

I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job

I can read a book and actually finish it

People have said that I act older than I am

I can be sent on an errand and not get sidetracked

count the number of highlights and thats the age you act.

15!! haha. i'm 15 years old =D
young okay.
hahaha.

i studied again.
hahhaha.
WEE~~!
i finally finished my physics.. tmr shld be duing the holiday assignment..
and for geog.
muahahha.
i'm gonna get 300 pages of notes on thurs.
XD
okay.
time to watch SUPERBAND now.
i support...
SOUL!!
JUZ-B!!
AMBER( how come out liao!!??)
MILUBING!
and er.
that's all i guess.
i like lucify's jap style though..
although yf say they poseur.
hahaha.
okay.
orh hei.
time for the show..
OH YA.
AND I SUPPORT MY LOVELY "NUI NAI" a.k.a. MILK.
hahah. he's soooooooooooooooooo CUTE.
=D

very nice song that my dad recommended =)

Artist: Air Supply
Song: All Out Of Love Lyrics

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if
I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day

Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

Chorus(3x)

i was so bored i started drawing =)
and this is my 3rd post today =X

that ^ shows me and wenjie's intelligence level..
at time t0.. wenjie is extremely smart but me dumb..
at time t1 we reach equilibrium.. so equally stupid..
haha. at time t2 i become smart while wenjie descends to stupidity.
lol.


for ivan.. haiz. no intelligence curve..
only have stupidity curve. and it's infinite.
=D

alrighty.
i started drawing better stuff too =D

okay she looks abit. rawr-ish.
haha. click image for bigger pic.(should be able to click la. dunno.hahah) lol.
but i love her.
so pretty. =D


some creature from RAVE. haha.
it's hungry =D


this is my trademark pig.
haha.
u might have seen it around on LT tables =P



sanzo!!! my darling. i drew this last year.
haha.
this one alota hard work.
lol.


faust! from shaman king.
used to love him.
haha.

kk
that's all =D

i feel like an immortal.
feel no hunger.
feel no tiredness.
even after dancing unconsciously for 45 mins.
no sweat.
okay there's no sweat cause the fan was blowing straight at me.
=X
wee.

"You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. "

how true.

how very true.

i'm so pooped. meaning tired.
finally finished the class blog =D
well got some negative comments.. but what the heck.
i did my job, and that's enough for me.
ah. a whole morning wasted :(
but at least i now know that i passed my GP essay.
ahh.. still very scared. =X
nvm. it's over. i shall relax.
i should get to work.
study.
yes i should.
later.
i will.
=D

STUDIED TODAY.
hahhaa.
so happy.
thanks lili..
for studying and crapping with me
hahhahahaha.
i did my measurements, kinematics and some dynamics.
yay.
at least i've made progress. hahaha.

yesterday was the last day of the leadership training
i'm glad i went :)
it was RAWR-ING (okay my version or rockin')
the faller and cradle thing.
i love it so much i did it again.
and to PRAVEEN : STOP TICKLING ME YOU _____!!
whatever.
hahaha. my it was really fun..
hahaa.
and i realised that...
THERE WERE PEOPLE SPYING ON ME. AND IVAN. AND PRAVEEN.
WTH.
hahhaa
the s24 peeps.
alwasy see us in physics lecture.
saw that we nv listen.
that we always drawing.
ah dammit.
hahhaa
next time cannot slack liao =X

hahhaha.
okay. time to restart my PC.
ciao!

alrighty. i shall show everyone my TRANSFORMATION(no not math). from year 2003 to this year.
yeppy.
got huge tansformation k.
haha.

YEAR 2003 (sec 2)


YES.
it's me.
the one right smack in the center.


okay. that's me at the bottom
after i got rid of my damnned specs.
doesn look that bad now rite.

YEAR 2004 (sec 3)


me in the botton center. so fair.
still doesn look that bad..


ok.
here it's starts
bad hair.
weird smile.
argh..


this is absolutely horrendous.
i'm disgusted.
yuk.

YEAR 2005 ( sec 4)


still bad hair.
bad bad hair.


so weird looking.. eww.


always getting bullied...

YEAR 2006 (JC1)


not bad. hair looks soft.


starts to get worse... :(


looks like i have black eye...


NOT ANYMORE!!!


the best my hair has looks so far.

rite. so you see again :


DIFFERENT RITE.
hahahhahaa.
jeez.
but i totally forgot how to smile :(
:)
i trying to smile naturally
=)
oh well.

1* Do you like to talk alot ?
-yes. hahaha.
2* Do you love anyone now ?
- i'm not very sure, but i like someone.
3* Do you hate being scolded in public ?
- DUH?
4* Do you hate school ?
- only the homework and stuff
5* Do you hate yourself ?
- when i do something i regret
6* Do you find yourself cute ?
- errrr. nvm.
7* Do you feel like having a gf/bf right now ?
- not really.. i'm not despo..
8* Do you smoke or drink ?
- drink water.. yes.
9* Do you like your teachers ?
- yes some! like mr eddie koh and ms lina and many others
10* Do you take drugs ?
- nah.
11* Do you like going to the movies ?
- yes. but i hardly go :(
12* Do you have a pet ?
- hamsters =D
13* Do you prefer calling ? or sms ?
- same same
14* Do you eat every morning ?
- no i dun eat the morning. i eat food.
15* Do you go on net everyday?
- almost.
16* Do you want to cry now ?
- no la. i'm in a good mood now :)
17* What are you doing now ?
- answering this.. and chatting on MSN.
18* What are you thinking of now ?
- the special one :)
19* What are you listening to now ?
- the tv.
20* Last person message to you ?
- chamayne
21* Last time you got lonely?
- in the morning
22* Last time someone makes you happy ?
- somewhere around this time now =)
23* Are you angry at someone ?
- nope. not now.
24* Guitar or Drum ?
- i like drums. although i can't play. haha.
25* Gay or Lesbian ?
- er... gays? they are the sensitive males. haha.
26* Do you like bisexual ?
- dunno. haven really known one.
27* Do you love the people who make you happy ?
- duh.
28* Do you believe in those people ?
-yea most of the time
29* What is your target for this year ?
- do well in my promos?
30* Do you rather shop alone or with people ?
- good frens
31* Who do you hate now ?
- nobody. i'm learning to like her.
32* Who are your best friends?
- gabriel and some others
33* Who are you missing now ?
- him =(
34* How are you feeling now?
- still quite happy

chalet was cool (love veronica and her bro.)
i love bridge (ps. andre damn blur)
and i took the skytrain for the first time in my life
it felt totally like LRT.
phooey.
and i ate at popeye's
=D

one week is over, almost.
and i haven done any work!!
remedial lessons were important
but i couldn't concentrate fully
i totally lost physics
i only understood geog.
for those who nv go human geog lect.
they missed a damn lot.

i have started my excercise regim(dunno how to spell) officially as of today
did a thousand skips with the skipping rope.
20 crunches
20 dips
err.
that's all.
today warm up abit only la
tmr then do more :)

tmr i'll do:
2000 skips.
3 sets of:
-15 hip rolls with leg extension
-15 single-leg chair lunge
-15 v-crunch
-15 dips

sounds so chim rite the names.
hahaha.
but i, silvia lim, will emerge from the june holidays not a fat-ass
but a seal with hot bod k!!
i promise.
will la.

my mum keeps complaining i have a big butt.
dammit.