i've changed my blog skin cause the old seal skin was spoilt.
the image was gone, and there were only yellow frogs (eww) all over the page.

roughly 20+ days to the first paper, and 40+ days to the END of the papers.
i'm so unprepared, and frightened.
i had a nightmare where i flunked my As.
i'm so scared that this worst nightmare will come true!
if it really happens, i don't know what i'll do, don't know what i can do.
i guess i really need someone who i can study with properly.
like really sit there and do our own work, and won't talk.
i need a person there so that i won't feel like alone..

on friday, i saw for my own eyes that determination and hard work alone maybe not be enough for the As..
and that girl is Annie.
she worked so hard but still she did badly.
I'm afraid to walk the same path as she did.

help..

i'm mentally exhausted, and i don't want to study anymore..

today is officially the end of the second last week of school..
all of a sudden, there's this sense of longing.. hoping that we'll have more time to stay together as a class..
the fun and all that laughter.. we'll definitely miss it..
but things do come and go..
and one can only hope that the friendships will last through our lives..

one more week, play hard, study smart!

Sen no Yoru wo Koete

"I want you to love me, but I dont think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

Do you love me or not?
I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know!
No matter how badly I desire to be with you
There are many unchangeable things in this world
and my love for you
can't be stopped by anyone

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Putting these feelings into words is so scary
but I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words
That's why we can only smile
Why we sing "do re mi" among the vivid autumn colors
With winter at our backs, and the spring sunbeams peeking through the leaves
as to protect someone who's just been reborn

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead,
my eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me
and live the rest of my days alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."
I wander around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'll say "I love you" to the one I love
Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love
And that's the most beautiful thing in the world

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time to update!
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ivan told me a joke ytd. i think it's quite funny, so i'm gonna share it =D

A man went to an electronics shop and was interested in a high-end tv.
So he asked the salesman, "Where is this tv from?"
Salesman: "I'm not very sure.. let me check it in the storeroom for you."
A few minutes later, the salesman came back.
Man: "So... where is it from?"
Salesman: "oh. it's built in antenna."

you got it?? built-in antenna...
haha..
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dunno where i should start updating from.
okay. 2 events. so it may be a slightly loooooong post.
haha.

Event 1
WHO: me, izzah and wenzong
WHAT: Hairspray movie
WHERE: Thiong Bahru Shopping Centre, Golden Village
WHEN: the day of physics prelims paper 2, sometime in the late afternoon
WHY: because i want to watch, lah
HOW: took a taxi beacuse lazy wenzong didn't want to travel by the long way, and we met izzah at TB. anyways our journey in the cab was kind of.. interesting.. cause the cab driver started talking to us. about... getai. well the movie was great though! 'cept for the fat female lead whose enormously flabby arms really wants to make me PUKE.

Event 2
WHO: me, izzah, fangxuan, siew huai, angsiang, wenzong, celine
WHAT: a day at vivo
WHERE: vivo..
WHEN: last last sunday
WHY: cause it was kinda raining, so we couldn't go sentosa, which was our original plan.
HOW: me and izzah were late for that day haha! and we almost spent the whole freaking day eating. bleh. we also went to the arcade. lost in the game of airhockey, 4 -13. but i beat wenzong in racing. muahahaha. we spent the last hour at superdog, where we played card games like heart attack. then it was time to go :( me, angsiang and wenzong took the train back together. and when we reached clementi mrt, they suddenly said they wanted to eat AGAIN. wth.. this time it was clementi's tangyuan! i was the only one who went there before, so i had to lead them there. but it was something like the blind leading the blind hahhaa. took us quite sometime to find the place. and that's the end! i'm just too lazy to elaborate.

okay i've managed to keep thhe 2 events quite short. ha.

i'm now a half-vegan. i stay away from only meat (except seafood). and i intend to do that for as long as possible.
go animal rights!!

in other news, i have a PILE of maths questions to do.
lecture, tutorial, and remedial ones.
i have at least 30 questions that i need to hand up by this friday!
it's so hectic, i don't even have time for my other subjects, like PHYSICS.
which i am almost equally bad in.
let me tell you how i spent my lessons today.
1st lesson: econs lesson. okay so i totally wasted that hour, didn't do anything at all.
2nd lesson: maths lect. so, well, i did MATHS.
3rd lesson: physics tutorial. i was doing maths.
4th lesson: maths tutorial. DUH. i was doing maths.
5th lesson: econs lect. hey, I WAS DOING MATHS!!!!!!!!

goodness me.
maths maths maths maths. and after this, i still have to do MATHS. cause there are just too many questions.
so little time.

when was the last time we spoke to each other?
somehow it feels so empty.
one thing's for sure..
out of sight =/= out of mind..