Monday, April 30, 2007

check this out. FUNNY STUFF.

Why Chinese must not have English names
here goes...

Why Chinese must not have English names
Anne Chang (Mandarin)- Dirty
Anne Chin (Mandarin) - Keep quiet
Faye Chen (Mandarin) - Dusty
Carl Cheng (Mandarin) - Buttock
Monica Cheng (Hokkien) - Touching your
Lucy Leow (Hokkien) - You are dead
Jane Tan (Mandarin) - Frying eggs
Suzie Leow (Hokkien) - Lost till death
Henry Mah (Mandarin) - Hate your mum
Corrine Tai (Hokkien) - Poor fellow
Paul Chan (Mandarin) - Bankrupt
Nelson Tan (Mandarin) - Bird laying
Leslie Tong (Mandarin) - Rubbish bin
Carmen Teng (Hokkien) - Leg hair long
Connie Mah (Cantonese) - Call your
Danny See (Hokkien) - Squeeze you to
Rosie Teng (Hokkien) - Screws and nails
Pete Tsai (Hokkien) - Nose droppings (MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE XD)
Macy Koh (Cantonese) - Never die before

just finished IT STARTED WITH A KISS.
i think it's damn nice
(although kaiee and germ say not nice, well anyways we usually have different views)
the ending very sweet and nice..
and i love my ZHENG YUAN CHANG.
he's like so handsome in the show XD XD XD
i'm easily addicted.
(not that i don't like rain anymore. i still ove him as my darling boyfriend. muahahhahaha.)
*kaiee dun snatch from me =D*

that's my new dear XD
i realised i like guys with hard faces.
meaning not too big that type. and no meat that type.
aiyah dunno how to say la.
like this picture of rain also =D

and that was shin-goon from GOONG.
i realised i like the guys all same style de.
that kind of hair, that kind of face.
lol. just love these type of faces man.
but =(
hard to find =(

10:44 pm

Thursday, April 26, 2007

This song by westlife explains how i feel EXACTLY.
so similar it's "scary"
enjoy! :

If I Let You Go

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

the courage to show
to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later I've gotta choose
and once again
I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

if I let you go, oh baby


once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me (close to me)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

but if I let you go
I will never know
(oh baby)

will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
How will I know
(how will i know)
if I let you go

7:21 pm

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

i recieved this email from valarie.
it made me think quite alot.
read on =)

Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you ?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle ?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger .

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? ( even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)

you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?

If you care about me as much as I care about you

you will send this back

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are , and send it to the person who sent it to you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and takecomfort in knowing
somebody out there cares about you and . always will..

I care about YOU !!

Send this to all the friends that you have...all the friends that you've lost...and to all the friends you've lost touch with...just to let them know that you care...send this back to the person who sent it to you if you consider them a friend

7:39 pm

Saturday, April 21, 2007

01. Name a person whose name starts with 'S'.
erm. Silvia? lol. isn't taht like myself =.=

02. 4th person on your missed call list in your phone.
(no number) <- shld be the germ ba.

03. What does the last message you received say?
"There was no training today?"

04. Do you chew on straws?
yep. chew chew chew~~

05. Do you have curly hair?

06. What's the next concert you're gonna attend?
har? erm. maybe some sch event de LOL

07. Who is the coolest person in your life?

08. What word do you always use?

09. What was the last thing you ate today?
hmmmm. dinner consisting of fish n chips and bread with campbell soup and salad. courtesy of my wonderful mum! okay if u mean exactly the LAST thing, it would probably be the campbell soup.

10. What was the last thing you said to someone and who was it?
mummy. talking about a show. lol

11. How old you wish you were?
16, when i was about 10 kgs lighter. dammit.

12. Where were you at 9.11am?
sitting in front of the com.

13. What do you do when the vending machine eats your money?
sian one million years, but forget about it.
what's the point of trying to bang ur money out?

14. Do you consider yourself kind?
ya la. quite.

15. If you have a tattoo, where do you want it to be?
dunno le. dun really want can? >.<

16. If you can be fluent in other languages, what would it be?
japanese. i really like their language

17. Do you like your neighbours?
yea not bad! very friendly.

18. What do you consider a vacation?
somewhere out of singapore.

19. Do you believe in horoscopes?
sometimes, when it's the good stuff. LOL.

20. Would you move for the person you love?
>.< that's what i'm troubled over la. sian~~

21. Are you touchy feely?
no. i dun like to touch around.

22. Do you believe that opposite sex attract?

23. Dream Job?
some designer thingy. but not gonna be possible. ohwell. =(

24. Favourite Channel?

25. Favourite Place to go out on a weekend?
i prefer to stay home leh. >.<

26. Shower or bath?
i shower.

27. Do you paint your nails?

28. Do you trust people easily?
YES. i'm gullible, really.

29. What are your phobias?
being alone sometimes

30. Do you want kids?
=/ dunno leh. see first la. haha

31. Where would you rather be right now?
with the special someone =)

32. What makes you feel fuzzy and warm?
when he talks to me =)

33. Heavy or Light Sleeper?
somewhere in the middle.

34. Are you paranoid?

35. Are you impatient?
sometimes, depends on the situation.

36. Have you ever been burned by love?
har? i dun undetsrand!

37. What is your favourite pick up line?
yo! i'm gonna pick you up!

38. What is the main ringtone on your phone?
it just vibrates.

39. Who are you thinking of right now?
who else?

40. Stab five people to do this quiz?
duwan la. stab ppl painful leh. =P

10:00 pm

Friday, April 20, 2007

woo. quite long since i last blog.
actually also not much happening wor.
just moody at times.
i need to stop thinking so much la. and get on with life.
just let things take it's flow yea.
and thanks alot to those who showed their concern haha.
really appreciate it ^^

went to alvin's house today with kaiee and junming.
wanted to take cab cause it was like soooo freaking hot.
so we tried flagging taxi. red one. (my fav colour)
bloody hell. the stupid uncle like ignore us and drive past.
okay la maybe he's hired or sth =/
not exactly buay song. just want to kb abit.
then we flag until 985 arrive liao =.=
so in the end took bus. ( i decided)
and on a hot humid day too.
i so totally regretted.
even the seats at the bus stop was burning~~
mad day.

(i'm kb-ing. ignore me.)

then reach alvin's hse. the sis using tv. so we cannot watch show =(
and alvin's room air-con spoil!!!!!!!!!
u should have seen kaiee and me the reaction la.
like somebody just stab us =.=
end up the idiot guys play their pc games.
then me and kaiee poker cards all the way~~
and make funny noises until the guys think we are mad. LOL.
really nothing to do ma!!
and i keep losing to kaiee.
owe her 2 drinks le.
i think i next week hor.. get allowance to pay kaiee leh.
my wealth is negative de.
can't believe it. =.=

btw. kaiee let me hear a nice rain song today (Move On)
lol i wish some charming guy will come by and tell me this:

When are you going to stop crying
As you wait for someone who isn’t going to come, closing your heart firmly
Why won’t you see me
I’m waiting for you, who is waiting for him

Move on move on
You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now, I’ll do it
I will always be right by your side
I won’t leave you like that person did

My heart that’s seeing you like this
Is hurting the same way yours is because of that person
My gaze that is watching you
Is the same as your gaze that looks at the seat that person left

Move on move on
You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now, I’ll do it
I will always be right by your side
I won’t leave you like that person did

Turn around and look at me now, give me a chance too
The scar that person left
I’ll take it upon myself, making up for it forever by your side
So give me a chance

Move on move on
You should just stop, that person isn’t coming
Open up my heart now

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
I’ll take that person’s seat now, I’ll do it
I will always be right by your side
I won’t leave you like that person did


8:08 pm

Sunday, April 15, 2007

In the beginning,
I took no notice of you,
I did not treasure the times with you.
I was thinking of another.

I failed to see,
How great you were to me.
It took me weeks
To know that my heart belonged to you.

I took a step foward
And we had such great times,
Great fun,
My heart soared.

I knew you may not feel the same way
So I did not push on.
I just watched you from afar,

I watched and watched
Even though at times I didn't want to
My heart just did so.

You smile,
I melt,
We talk,
We laugh.

For times,
I thought you really did care.
I thought we were one,
I thought you could be mine.

I was so wrong
I tried lying to myself;
I only hurt myself.

So actually,
It was all my dreaming
You think in no way of me
The way I think of you.

I want to forget.
I want to move on.
But I like you too much.
To let you go.

I though of giving it a shot
To tell you so
But I can't
I'm a coward

I fear
Of the silence that may be between us.
The tension;
You'd avoid me

Though I know
If I remain this way
You'll never know;
You'll forget about me.

These feelings
So very complicated
Like a blade through my heart

1:13 pm

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

stupid blogger couldn't blog for a few days.

watch this. it's relly damn funny.
about a monkey and dog doing situps hahaha =D

and this is damn cute and funny too. WATCH!!
haha =)

9:27 pm

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

this is turning into an emo blog soon.
cause these few days has been really bad.
it's like i've started climbing since the start of the year..
in all aspects..
but now i'm sliding down.
i'm trying so hard to control that.. i'm trying to anchor myself somewhere..
so that i won't fall further..
my studies.. fell like god knows what..
my friends.. haha.. i've landed myself in some ruts..
my money.. getting lesser and lesser..
my love life.. totally the dumps.
my r/s with ppl.. getting worse..
i guess i hit rock bottom today.

it's the worst day i felt i guess.
like almost everything hits bottom today..
not able to meet the criteria for SLO just reminds me of my failing common test.
seeing the 2 of them together.. wow that's a pang of jealousy i nv felt before
not being able to work with my ogls kinda hurts too..
heh.. and realising that he doesn't even notice me. i can't really describe the feeling..
my money.. all gone.

this really sucks like nothing ever did.
it's almost like the first time i've felt such failure.
the first time i got a U for exams.
the first time i didn't pass my exams.
the first time i signed up for something and didn't get in.
countless failures coming my way.
i guess my luck is really running out.

and i couldn't feel anything today.
there were so many emotions choked up that i really felt numb.
so numb, i don't know what's going on around me.
so numb, that i couldn't even cry.
so numb, that i almost can't do anything.
but somehow it makes me do my homework.

though all these, i thank the friends who have not left me alone
i thank the friends who talks normally and calmly to me despite my being so obvious that i'm emo.
i'm abit frustrated at the people who shouts at me just cause i did something wrong.
am i not human?
i'm abit frustrated at the people who never says anything nice to me.. every word that comes out of their mouth hurts like a blade thru my heart.
am i not human to them?

izzah told me.. that sometimes it's good to feel numb..
it's like.. it's really not worth feeling the pain..
but mostly for me.. it's so much pain that i'm feeling numb..
it's like i'm heading nowhere..
i have no direction.. no aim..

and today.

today is my turning point.

wake up call is here.

anyways these 2 lyrics kinda showed exactly how i felt today..

"Loneliness Knows Me By Name" (blog song)

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of my dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?


Life is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find

"Somebody needs you" (chorus)

Somebody needs you like never before
Somebody wants your love
Baby so open the door
Don't you leave me alone
Don't you turn out the light
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you tonight

both songs are by westlife.. they still rocks as much as ever..

9:45 pm