Monday, July 30, 2007

i must say i really love wenzong's new blog skin.
cause it's uber nice.


nice rite. for the real thing, you can visit his blog to check it out.

i love it cuz... I MADE IT!!
after a few long nights (eg sleepng at 1 am)
i finally knew what i wanted to create.
and i did it,
and i'm proud of myself. =D

Quote from wz's blog:
"Ok i hearly announce i love Silvia to bits and pieces!!!!!! =DDD Silvia made a new blog skin for me and goddd its damn nice ^^, Ty so much dumb dumb!!!"

it's a really great feeling to have your work appreciated! ^^
(even though i seem to be in bits and pieces now. lol.)

study time!

11:35 pm

Friday, July 27, 2007

hope you had fun fooling me.

4:00 pm

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

ever since friday, i've started to be a little more serious in everything that i do.
i guess now i can see my goals a little more clearly..
1) concentrate on studies
2) losing weight

i don't know why but now these 2 things seem most important to me.
i'm not going to let those feelings get in my way anymore.
i'm not going to brood over something that may not be mine.
love will eventually find it's way to me (:

just when i started to miss those small little things that make life great, they happened today!
-having fun during PE(floorball) and the after PE sessions(wonderful captain's ball)
-like laughing away with alvin at KennySia during geog lesson (from hello kitty tulan to kingkong tulan),
-going to BP with the girls (even though just for a short while) and buying mine junk food with shuting and soohuey.
these are happy moments.
things that make the day complete.
it seemed so long since it last happened.
i'm starting to get emo again.. HAHA. jking la.

anyways, something cute to show you guys!(even though most watched already)


and a hot video...


i believe my days will definitely be much better!

how i wish you didn't meant it "as a friend"
but i guess i was just living in my own dream.
it was all just my one-man show.
i should have stopped when you said "don't waste your time"

8:50 pm

Monday, July 16, 2007

My Secret in Silence

You came into my life
Quietly, simply, placidly
And my words stood still...

I couldn't express in words
Or even simple gestures
The secret I kept in my heart.

So I loved in silence,
Admired you from a distance,
Dreamt of you from afar.

I wanted to say I love you...
I wanted to say I care.
But cowardly, maybe, you'll only laugh at me.

In silence then I will love you...
In silence then I will care...

-Lorelei Pablo

9:07 pm

Saturday, July 14, 2007

saw this in wenzong's blog.
lol funny stuff!!

Indian Song with funny chinese subs =)

*no racism intended*

6:44 pm

Friday, July 13, 2007

went to warren's again yesterday with biwei, chari, kaiee, shuting and soohuey!
(exclamation mark above is used for whole sentence, not for soohuey's name alone)
while biwei, shuting and soohuey got into their sexy costumes and went for swimming,
people who cant swim like me and chari went to the arcade.
oh. kaiee kinda can't lift her head up while swimming, so she went to the arcade too.

well it was then ddr all the way!!

after that we went for the planned steaming.
it was so freaking hot and wet and misty!
and we are all kind of naked, save for the towel that covers part of our body :O
after that we tried the sauna. it was HOTTER.
we had to breathe thru our mouths and we tasted the wood *yuck*
and it makes ur lips hurt.
but it was worth it! after that it felt super relaxing!

anyways today was a boring day =(
study study and study only.
dennis yeo's talk was not bad.
i must stay away from all the distractions!

maths remedial was quite good actually.
the teacher is so smart.
but i wonder what heppened to his hair 0.o
when i first saw him in school, it was something like this:

now, it's like this:

omg. and he didn't even do anything about it!!
it was like he just woke up or something =.=
he doesn't even use like wax or what.
i'll have to flash the Gatsby Rubber advert infront of him next time.

hell if he still doen't do anything about it,
i'm sure it will soon become this.
by prom, definitely.


3:09 pm

Monday, July 09, 2007

i really don't know what's this i'm feeling..
i've tried diverting my attention so many times, but it just goes back to him.
and the loneliness sets in.
such strong feelings that up till today, i still can't tell him directly..
it's been almost a year i guess.
and i dun understand the reason for my feelings.
and there are times when i want so much to talk to him, to just say a "hi" or just a wave..
but i always chicken out and look away.
i feel like such a coward
and sometimes it's just like, i don't know how i should go about talking to him
i'm afraid he would be nonchalant and all that.
i guess he has never left my head..
i find myself subconciously thinking of him throughout the day..
this is bad.
really bad.

don't know when it started that i begin to feel really insecure..
no longer daring to take risk..
no longer saying what i really feel.
i feel trapped in a shell that is trying to protect myself..
from any hurt, from anyone..
when i try to break that shell, i think of the consequences that might take place, and i sit back in my comfort zone again..
this has been going on for so long that i cannot understand myself anymore; i sometimes get angry with myself.

i never confess my feelings anymore because i was once hurt badly and it will cost me that friend..
i couldn't blade well that day not only because my feet hurt, but also because i was so afraid to fall, like i did on my first ice-skating trip..
i realised that many of these little incidences are having a huge impact on who i am right now..
it has made me really cautious about what is going to happen to me, such that i just sit in a corner, doing only the safe things, and slowly losing my teenage life.
even as i'm typing this and understanding this, i still don't dare to step out of my shell.
i feel like such a hypocrite sometimes.

somebody just kill me already.

11:03 pm

everyone has blogged about 070707!!!
i shall not be lazy. now's my turn.
UGH. i just feel too lazy.
just read from either Alvin, Charissa or Soohuey's blog okay?
guess i'll post next time =(
i still have Physics mock SPA to study for, and it's already 11PM.

10:55 pm

Friday, July 06, 2007

Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore

Hugh: "Way back into love, take one."

Drew: "Oh God, I'm getting really nervous."

Grant: "You'll be fine, just use your normal, nice voice I've heard so much over the last three days."

Drew: "It's like my throats closing up it’s like anaphylactic.”

Grant: “its fine it’s just a three minute song. “

Drew: (sung softly) “I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed.”

Grant: “Just a little bit louder ´cause this song is intended for humans o.k., way back into love take two.”

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

(Drew Laughing)
Grant: oh for heavens sake

Drew: “That’s your serious Oh, Oh, Oh Face

Grant: “I know I can work with that much that is my Rock n’ Roll face millions of women find that very sexy, Oh you think That’s funny.”

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

10:05 pm

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i'm sad, so i try to cheer myself up by watching youtube videos =D


2007 MTV MOVIE AWARDS!! Sarah SIlverman Kills Paris Hilton

Spider Man Parody

and here are the neoprints i took that day!

i think they are really nice!
time to work on wenzong's blog skin.
shall post more stuff next time!

whether i study or not, the results don't really make muh of a difference. i still did pretty badly this time round.

8:22 pm